Heart Attack (follow up)

It’s now been eleven days since my heart attack. I’ve been walking upwards to a mile a day now, but had to cut back, as when I returned from these walks I would have to sleep for three hours, and now, yesterday, I had palpitations all day. I feel as though I’ve run a marathon.

I was meditating and praying as I read a chapter in the book of psalms, and the name Linus Pauling came into my mind. I hadn’t heard that name for a long time, and I knew he’d done groundbreaking work in the effects of vitamin C fighting cancer. So I googled his name and found that he’d also done groundbreaking work in fighting against clogged arteries. It seems he endorsed taking high doses of vit. C and Lysine. So I ordered some. Maybe? Who knows? I have two more clogged arteries and eventually I’ll have to get stents in them as well.

I woke up the other morning and for some reason I asked God why He loved me? His response before I could sit up in bed was, “Because I hate sin.” I didn’t understand right away what His point was, He can be so cryptic sometimes. Then I realized what He was saying. Adam had brought sin into the world and death. God didn’t hate Adam; He loved him, having created him after his own image. So He devised the plan to destroy two enemies before the foundation of the world—actually three. At the cross, where He shed His blood through Yeshua, the Son of God, he destroyed the first enemy—sin. By this act he was able to reconcile Adam, and all who put their faith in Him, back to Himself.

On the day of the resurrection He will have destroyed the second enemy—death. Then we will be restored back to the same state Adam and Eve were in before they fell. When He finally destroys Satan, then sin and death will no more reign and all of God’s enemies will have been destroyed.

God was telling me, not just that he loved me, but how much, and to what length He has gone through to prove it. I know for some of you, if not most of you, this is not new information. But someone like me, who as a child, never was hugged or told he was loved by his parents, this revelation from God was an epiphany. We are always told that God loves us, and that He died on the cross for us, but I had never quite understood why. He truly loves mankind and wants to restore us to full reconciliation, to be able to walk with us in the cool of the evening in the garden of our soul, He loves intimacy with His creation, and He loves his creation, so much that the pain and death of Yeshua would free us, who believe, from the law of sin and death. Shalom.